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8 years on...

8 years on and I still miss you.
8 years on and I still think about you.
8 years on and I still think of all the good times and bad.
8 years on and I still laugh at your jokes.
8 years on and I still tell people funny stories about us.
8 years on and I'm still mad as hell that you were taken from us.
8 years on and I still cry and get depressed.
8 years on and I still think of you on your birthday.
8 years on and I can still see your face.
8 years on and I can still hear your voice.
8 years on and I'm still trying to move on.
8 years on and you're still the annoying little bird on my ass.
8 years on and I still feel the terror.
8 years on and I still miss you.

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