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My friend Yanka (aka The Legend)

 My dear friend Yanka has been in the hospital for a couple of days now, and it drives me nuts that there’s nothing I can do about it. She’s thousands of miles away. My language skills are limited, which means there’s only so much I can communicate, and only with certain people. I can’t just call the hospital - and anyone who knows me knows that I absolutely would if I could. Last night I got word that she’s doing slightly better. The phrase I heard was “serious but stable.” I have no direct way to contact her family, so I’ve been sending messages and hoping someone can make sense of my Yoda-like Bulgarian. I’m lucky to have such a friend. Yanka is incredible. She grew up a village girl, became a nurse, and then life took a turn I doubt she ever expected. She won a singing contest, and suddenly she had a career. In 1971 there was the plane crash. Yanka was one of the few survivors, and the experience changed her deeply. A few years later she formed Trio Bulgarka. Their music was al...
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Hi Neighbor!

 I still don’t know if he ever fired a shot. That’s the funny thing about small-town stories. By the time they’re finished making their rounds, everyone remembers something different. Someone heard shots. Someone else swore the police found an arsenal in his house. Another person claimed he tried to lure a kid inside. But the truth is, none of us really knew. All I knew for certain was the way he used to greet us. The Southend projects sat just a few blocks from downtown, close enough that you could still hear traffic off Fourth Street and smell the bakery some mornings. Kids cut through the sidewalks on their way to the chippy, and old houses leaned into each other along Fifth like they’d been standing there too long. And almost every time we passed his place, we heard it. “Hiiiiiiiiiiii neighbor.” He’d draw it out in a soft voice that never quite sounded friendly, even though it was clearly meant that way. My friend and I would hear it whenever we passed his place. This was down ...

The Offer

 Pascal philosophized that all human problems stem from the inability to sit quietly in a room alone. He believed people fear loneliness because it forces them to confront their own anxieties, leading them to seek constant, often shallow, distractions. For millennia, humans have found ways to build relationships and propagate the species. Until now.  What's changed?  If media is to be believed, the younger folks just ain't getting freaky like their grandparents did.  Josh was thirty-four years old and had never so much as held a woman’s hand. That was the line he liked to start with when he argued online. It had a certain tragic rhythm to it, something he felt people should recognize as proof of his personal deep injustice. Thirty-four years. As if time itself had wronged him. His bedroom was still the same room he had grown up in. Posters had been replaced with a second monitor and a ring light for recording videos no one watched. The carpet smelled faintly of dust ...

Little Guy

  It began with shadows. His vision was already getting bad. Diabetic retinopathy. His great-grandmother had gone blind from it, but that was a long time ago. Modern medicine had come a long way since then. But his vision was definitely getting worse. His world was slowly growing darker and more shadowy. He'd come to terms with it. What he hadn't come to terms with - yet - was his Parkinson's diagnosis. He'd noticed his left forefinger was twitchy. It didn't hurt, and it really wasn't impacting his day in any big way. His doctor asked about it during an office visit. The questions kept coming, and soon he had ticked enough boxes to warrant the diagnosis.  Parkinson's Disease. He'd had some of the early signs for a few years, but the doctor had initially chalked them up as resulting from the stroke he suffered. Ever since, he'd been moving slower. His voice was quieter and raspier. Constipation was common. He'd never slept well, but he slept worse...

Aggie O'Toole

Just a wee scéal for the Gremlin (and anyone else who wants to read it) - MM  Aggie O'Toole always knew the difference between perspective and the truth.  She was a smart old gal; I'll give her that. She wasn't exactly educated. Well-read maybe. But she was street smart, and world smart.  Coming to America had been her parents' idea. She was, as she put it, just a 'wee thing' when they came here. She'd have rather stayed in Ireland. People there were, as she often said, less full of shit. When we met, I'd been spending a lot of time hiding from the world in a neat little space at the top of a bridge embankment. There were times I'd stay the night there when things got too bad at home. I'd sit there, smoking, and watch the town where I lived try to live up to its old reputation. It was like a forgotten, deposed monarch living in a shabby excuse for a run-down castle.  I'd look at the lights of town, knowing full well what was going on. I'd...

VOX DEI

"Free choice. It doesn't matter whether you call it a gift from God or simply the human condition - we have it. That's what makes everything so damned confusing. Every bomb. Every killing. Every war. A choice. God does not reach down to stop the hand that strikes the match. He does not grab the trigger of a rifle or redirect a missile in mid-air. If anything, He asks a quieter question. "Is this really what you want?" And we answer. Again. And again. "Yes." We're at war in the Middle East again. I suppose we never learn. Those lands have been fighting for longer than our histories can properly remember. Empires come. Empires go. Prophets rise. Prophets fall. Still the killing continues. We say it is about faith. We say it is about land. We say it is about security. But God hears other things. He hears the whispered deals in quiet offices. He hears the drilling machines waking beneath the desert. He hears the quiet mathematics of profit measured agai...

The Prank

“Nothing good has ever come from the phrase ‘It’ll be funny.'” - Unknown It was a prank. Just a prank. At least that was how Dennis explained it to himself afterward. A harmless joke. A little embarrassment. Something to knock his brother-in-law Jason down a peg or two before the man disappeared completely into whatever strangely desperate digital cave he seemed to be living in these days. The idea hadn’t even been Dennis’s at first. It started with his wife. One evening she came into the kitchen holding her phone with the particular expression people get when the internet has disappointed them again. “Jason’s posting again,” she said. Dennis kept rinsing a coffee mug. “What about this time?” She read from the screen. “ ‘Women only date criminals now. Society is collapsing. Men like me are being replaced.’ ” Dennis sighed. “Those videos again?” “The same ones.” Jason was forty-six. Divorced once and very nearly divorced a second time if you counted the three-month engagement that ...